It seems to be tug of war between being ur ‘true self’ and trying to be optimistic.
Now then, truely I’m feeling like complaining and whinging and moaning but its all not so good causes and creates same effects for me.
However it can’t be said I’m pretending to be someone else either because in essence our truest self is buddhahood. And our mission is to be happy :s my head spinning.
Regardless. I’m deciding to be happy 🙂 no matter how kadwa the reality might be.