As Nichiren Daishonin says, the only one who can really make the determination and become happy is you, but encouragement is absolutely essential.
She won’t, and I don’t want her to, its not abt that, its just I don’t want to go..!! I think I’m being total selfish. But this is what’s on my mind – I don’t want to go, once or twice in emergency or when we’re free its fine, but kya yar she calls everytime and somehow I don’t like it 😦 she only calls me when she needs me, which is what friends does I guess, but I feel used 😐 and I’d rather stay home and chant cos I’m not interested to go, and somehow I always think.. Because I don’t want to do things tht I don’t want to something that’s not that imp and can be done without me, I’d rather do something else at home, chill or even stay home and chant. True I can create value by going out, but what if I don’t see the point, she can go without me too na? Its trouble tho.. She has to take 1 train and a bus but but I used to do that too?! I just feel selfish and I know I am X_X how can I change this situation around, cos atm I’m totally begrudging and feel obliged
Just becoming bitter.
Dang it, the ticket was for monday And my friend picked it up so she’s feeling terrible. I’m more woried abt what ppl wilkl say and does this mean defeat at all.